search Title: Hold Me Now (April 2002)
Author: Rita Marx pinduck85@yahoo.com
Rating: G
Category / Plot Bunny: Angst =:'(
Characters: Obi-Wan and Amidala
Summary: " 'Tis better to have loved and lost..."
Setting: Obi-Wan's room in the Temple / Old Republic
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Note: <Personal thoughts> , ^ Lyrics ^
Authors Note: Song used is _Hold Me Now_ by the Thompson Twins (1984)

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Obi-Wan stands alone in his room. Alone with his feelings and an
aching heart that will never heal.

^ I have a picture ^
^ pinned to my wall. ^

He raises a hand to trace over Ami's face in a holopic taken by the
lake on Naboo.

^ An image of you and of me ^
^ we were laughing with love in it all. ^


^ Look at our life now. ^

Sadly, he drops his hand and his eyes remembering the last time they
were alone together.

^ Tattered and torn. ^
^ Fussing and fighting. ^

He recalls their argument as she admitted her love for his padawan.

^ Delighting with tears ^
^ and we cry until dawn. ^

He tried to warn her that he was dangerous, but would hear none of
it.


^ Hold me now. ^
^ Hold my hand. ^

He tries to push away the strong feelings he holds in his heart for
this captivating young woman.

^ Stay with me. ^
^ Let loving start. ^
^ Let loving start. ^

His heart aches as it silently pleads for her love. Yet, he knows
this love shall ever be unrequited.


^ You say I'm a dreamer. ^

In his heart, he knows he will forever lover her deeply.

^ We're two of a kind. ^
^ Both of us searching for ^
^ some perfect world ^
^ we know we'll never find. ^

They each search for a perfect love. He knows they both love in
vain.


^ So perhaps I should leave here. ^

He takes a deep breath and scrubs his face with his hands.

^ Yeah, go far away. ^

He knows she will never love him as he loves her. He makes his
decision.

^ But you know that ^
^ there's nowhere that ^
^ I'd rather be than ^
^ with you here today. ^

<Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all,>
he says to himself.


^ Hold me now. ^
^ Hold my hand. ^
^ Stay with me. ^

A part of him refuses to let her go.

^ Let loving start. ^
^ Let loving start. ^


^ Hold me now. ^
^ Hold my hand. ^
^ Stay with me. ^

A part of him wants to pull her close and never let go.

^ Let loving start. ^
^ Let loving start. ^


^ You ask if I love you. ^
^ What can I say? ^

He remembers her last words. "If you truly love me, Obi-Wan, you'll
let me go, for my heart belongs to Anacin... Let me go."

^ You know that I do, ^
^ and that this is just ^
^ one of those games that we play. ^


^ So I sing you a new song. ^

He bows his head in silent reverence to her image. His breath
catches in his throat.

^ Please don't cry any more. ^
^ And I ask your forgiveness, ^
^ though I don't know just ^
^ what I'm asking it for. ^

<Forgive me Aim... Forgive me for loving you.>


^ Hold me now. ^
^ Hold my hand. ^

Slowly he removes the holopic from the wall and carefully places it
into a box. Slowly he pushes it under his bed.

^ Stay with me. ^

<Out of sight, out of mind,> he tries to convince himself.

^ Let loving start. ^
^ Let loving start... ^

His heart will always yearn for what can never be.

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